I was missing for more than a Decade

 Its been 11 years that I published my first blog and then I added two more. 

thats it!

I forgot that an account exists over here and I was lost in so many things that it will take a while to update. I have been a writer since always but I never understood it too well. my nana, my mama-mami, my mother and my chacha, all have this trait.

Its been 12 years and today read my posts (just 3 over here) and I realized that I was so unpolished and guess what? I am still almost same. I wish I could just have worked on my writing skills and started it as my career.

I did so many things in so many fields but that didn't worked out for me. I feel like I made a Maze out of my life and now I am wandering in it looking for a way out. Well it was not all bad. My personal life took a flight. I got married to a loving and caring husband and then I gave birth to two beautiful babies. Ahh! what a bliss!

But yes, when I look at my career which is now lying fat on ground. I feel depressed. I saw my old self and realized that the younger me was much smart and capable. she never feared a poor English (even though in country like India it is a symbol of standard), she never though that she will fail and will not get up, or she cant't do it. Now when I have seen more life and understood it better, I have lost confidence in myself. Wish to be that girl again and rock the opportunities. 

I want to tell you all what I experienced, good or bad. I want more people to join me so that we can share more and feel belonged and help each other find a way out  from our self-made mazes.

come on! lets connect.

yours truely

Perfectly imperfect

Pooja

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Show must go on

Life is what we make it.. because its completely our attitude which makes life Either easy or Difficult...


Every now and then Life throws challenges on me with such a great pressure that I feel like drowning, my tears rolled down, 1000 questions strikes that WHY ALWAYS ME?, many nights go sleepless looking at the consequences and reasons... and even i start questioning my own ability and credibility,, but when i look at the support which my mom endures on me... I realise,d I MUST BE SOMETHING VERY IMPORTANT TO GOD THAT HE BESTOWED ME WITH SUCH A GENEROUS N HIGHLY DIGNIFIED MOTHER who knows how to treat me in my adversities and shape me for the day when I will be able to deliver something incredible to her and to this earth.. she let me look into the history that all those who became winners were never headed by an easy life.. and make me believe that whatever is being happening is good,, although I m not destined for that.. bcz wenevr something happens to us which we dont actually deserve den it has some specific reason behind that and to bring out an inborn manager from us to manage unanticipated outcomes of life. 


Right now what's incredible for me is this BELIEF that i vl come out of it soon... n whatever is being happening is not still as bad as it looks,, time has to pass.. it wil not remain constant forever as its life and show must go on...

Being nostalgic

Its an extra ordinary day for me... (14th feb)
I did not mean by that "extraordinary"( spcl or better den other days) but here it means ordinary in extra (excessively ordinary). I feel strange wen all d gals on d hostel floor wish each other a cheerful valentine's n, get phone calls, roses n gifts frm their lovers n discuss merrily their experience of being in love... I feel it so very irrelevent to me.. like I am an odd one out bt neways I have also decided this tym that...
I want mom to b my valentine cz she constanly loves me from even before my birth wid all my incapabilities, my insufficiency and inefficiency.. actually she lovea what I m,, regardless of any expectation of improvemnt in me..
now when am residing away from her I realise every now n then that what I left behind.. n miss her like anything... jz wanna say,, hugging her tight n letting all the pain flow in once.. I LOVE YOU MAA and it really feels great when people says that you are shadow of your mother...

No one is perfect

I dont know where it will lead you..
I dont know how it will treat you..
bcz its life my dear,, at any point of time
it may cheat you..



In the all wise ways and happy sunny days,,
it may crush you or perhaps it defeat you..


option is always yours that how will u react..
how will you stand and walk,, knowing all the fact..

there may come many offer,, many may reject..
but my love,,keep in mind that no one is perfect..


set your mind and look forward as nothing at the back..
once you will reach the destination,, you will be the jack..